i wonder i am cynical or heartless or bo chup or just purely too self centred or too angsty with life or rebellious ( at my age??)
i realised i am not saddened by a stranger’s death anymore.. even if they are national heros or just beggars by the roadside. i just move on in life. Is it caused by the nature of my job? i wan to live life to the fullest, exploit every single drop of tangible stuff there is to exploit. i know i can die anytime, but i dun wan to die knowing that there are things in life i haven achieved. yeah, one national hero died, too bad. life goes on. suck it. i still have tons of work to do, tons of paper to count, money to be paid out to the banks, money to be paid out to my parents, frens that are waiting for me to meet. who cares who dies? it adds another topic to my everyday life conversation of who is leaving the company and the rising property oil prices.
at least ppl know the sea is not forgiving. i am short tempered at work. ask me a wrong qn, i snap at u. dun come and ask me stupid qns, i dun have time to waste on u. i have become a monster. at work. this is an unforgiving world i tell them. wan to prove me wrong? a product of the company? i would say yes, i may prove to be a catalyst to the ppl wanting to leave the company. but i am still a nice guy outside the company, i would like to believe.
i dun like it when everyone is sappy over the death of a few guys, i’m like, ya ya ya, they died, they are now out of the rat race. good for them. i am such a bitch. bite me. do u still know me? am i the same old ronghe? haaaaa….
