good things

u know, when the going gets tough, its always good to stop. take a deep breathe, and enjoy the fresh air and nice sight.

so without going into the bad things, let me just say i appreciate these things in my life right now.

1. i have a job

2.baby ashlyn coming out in sep!!

3.i have a loving and sweet wife

4.i have a nice house

5.my health is relatively ok

6.i have money inside my bank

7.i have been eating durian non stop for the past few weeks

8.i have friends

9.i have a really good and supportive MIL

10. i am currently on a 8-5 job

11. i am going to play soccer this thursday!

12. i am flying this thursday! so exciting!

13. my stocks are losing LESS money. haha

see, now i feel better so much already

worried

a few days ago, baby wasnt kicking wifey and she got damn worried.. so after one night of non movement, we went to Mount A and did a CTG scan. thank god everything was alright.

this brings me to another point.. i am damn worried that once the baby comes out we’ll not have enough time to take care of her and work at the same time. especially with our kinda work schedule..

anyway, i have always thought that people that can combine passion with work are the happiest people on earth.. and i found my passion! its managing money.. actually to be more specfic, to save cost. to get the maximum out of your money spent or to get maximum utility. eg. u are on those super fast broadband that u pay 100 bucks a month. but do u really need it? my guess is most people do not really need it but the money is neglible to them so they just carry on with it. people do not usually take stock of what they are paying unless they need the money.  i am very interested to help people save money. but the question is how to convert that interest to a full time job that pays similar to my current job? i think its hard.. well, at least i can articulate something i like now! unlike last time where i have “no passion for anything”

yay!

comfort food

there is comfort food and there should be a comfort sports. Soccer is my comfort sports. of course it depends on who u play with. today i had a spendid day at the court. not that i played very well but just basking around hearing my friends familiar voice is very comforting to me. sigh. the good old days. anyway, erwin! SEE U BACK THERE SOON!

and its getting very difficult for me to try to commit to playing soccer with my friends though i really want to. first of all, its so far.. come woodlands play leh guys! secondly, its so inconvenient. most of the time wifey drives me to and fro from soccer..sigh.. again.

well, wifey has made a decision and she will join another company next year june and i am very happy for her.. though she had a tough decision cause she was headhunted by two companies at the same time.. so she had to make a deliberate decision. to be a big fish in the small pond or the small fish in the big pond? no matter what, u are a delicious fish! duh… hahahahaha.. no matter what i’ll support u ya wifey!! =)

i played soccer with my company friends today.. it was just pure fuuun. i guess u can seriously measure how fun it is by hearing how much laughter there is from the game and there was plentiful! hope we can take more time off work to play if they want to.

i met hanlin and edison at JP after that and it was good old catch up.  obviously edison was late but hey luckily i did not have much expectations so there was not much disappointment.. haha.. havent seen hanlin in a while especially after he left the company.. kept wondering how he was .. well, what can i say, he is still the same old hanlin. no change at all.

today after the soccer, i went to the toilet and when i looked into the mirror i got a scare.. didnt knew i looked so old nowadays.. sigh..  study time!

stupid me

Today I watched a movie with my course mates.. I didnt quite understood that movie.. or rather I was totally lost in that movie.. with planes flying from all direction and people talking at the speed of light. I struggled to catch what they said not to mention what they meant. So for the whole movie I was trying to take down what they say and trying to piece together what happened.

I knew what was going to happen after the movie and I was thinking. Should I act cool and intelligent and act like I knew what was happening? Or should I just tell them straight in the face that I have no idea what happened just now and just wasted my $9.50 and someone pls pls pls pls help me by telling me the whole story? Well, I would have done the latter if I was in the past.. but now, there is just something stopping me from appearing too stupid.

I knew I wasnt very clever from the start. When I was small, understanding complex things took a colossal effort and I deeply remember learning about the sin, cosine and tangent equation took me like 3 hours of just staring at the equation and just trying to figure out what the hell it is.. I guess its also because I am the only child and there is nobody to turn to for help when I needed it..

as I grow up, I realise that understanding movies and books was a challenge as well.. I had trouble focusing on the movie and always couldnt remember the names of the characters in the movie, without the names, u will easier be lost when they are talking. Because of that, I am often lost halfway through the movie and I will get distracted.. I also had trouble reading thick books because I cannot remember what I read after a while.. but I did enjoyed books like famous five and those sort..

having said all that, it definitely made me look damn dumb.. but in the end also graduated right? Well, I guess I am more exam smart than really trying to remember things because they are useful.. I always thought that I can do without the knowledge after I step out of the exam hall.. a bit regret my mentality now.. sigh…

I guess I better go and read up on those planes in the movies now and learn how to talk like the main characters inside now.. what a way to spend friday night. Bah!

picture worth more than a thousand words

my course mates! plus one chaser(dog).

fat

i’m growing fat.. cannot take it.. apparently all the studying has taken a toll on me..

“Ready or not here i come!!”

i can almost hear baby ashlyn shouting to us. “ready or not here i come!!”

its such an exciting period for both of us and although we might not be mentally, physically or in any way prepared to receive this bundle of joy, we are still looking forward to it very anxiously.

of course it doesnt hurt to have a good MIL that is also very excited to welcome this bundle of joy..

look at what is happening to our sports room and we seldom use it! all the plans that we made when we are renovating our house is going to be thrown out of the window!

work wise, course is good albeit shag.  which job when 8-5 is not good? even though there are so many tests to study for and quite a number of projects to do.. but the time that u are able to spend with ur family every night is worth it.

just watched a channel u interview that showed guo liang and quan yi feng interviewing huang yi liang.. a bit nostalgic sia..  but it was an interesting watch though it meant that i have less time to study.. oh well.

oh ya.. today’s dinner was not very successful, i went to ntuc to buy egg toufu to cook hot plate beancurd but in the end i bought plain toufu.. sucks. but had to make do with it la.. well, u can only improve when u try try try right???

erwin, recover soon!!! dun grow fat at home!